“Sometimes life is too hard to be
alone, and sometimes life is too good to be alone.”
當我獨自一人坐在落地窗前的木椅子上，
手中捧著還有餘溫的咖啡杯子，
香氣在我鼻端盤旋，
身後的喧囂和眼前的寧靜形成莫名的對比，
我突然覺得無比的寂寞，卻又一點都不寂寞。
這種感覺好奇怪好矛盾，
而我無法釐清那其中的思緒。
我突然在想，假如往後的日子都是如此，我也願意。
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有一本書，是我一直錯過的。
因為考試，我終於認真地把它細細閱讀。
從英文版的印度，
到中文版的巴厘，
指尖在熒幕的不斷滑動，最終定格在LIZ的結語，
失落感襲上心頭，
卻又是一陣輕鬆。
書中的文字帶給我不斷的衝擊，不斷的感動。
禪修冥想的力量，
LIZ與自身不斷的拉扯，和過去的糾結，最後meditate
with God.
她找到在塵世間自省自在的方式。
而我呢？
每一段文字都像是我的另一面鏡子。
縱使是英文，縱使是我不太好的英文，
但一個個拉丁字母拼湊出來的，宛如警鐘般敲進我的心。
也許我應該，再挑一個時間，讓自己好好地，重新地，思考一遍。
摘錄我喜歡的一些quotes.
- You are, after all, what you think. Your
emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your
emotions.
- The other problem with all this swinging
through the vines of thought is that you are never where you are.
You are always digging in the past or poking at the future, but rarely
do you rest in this moment.
- There's a reason they call God a presence--
because God is right here, right
now. In the present is the only place to find
Him, and now is the only
time.
- You should never give yourself a chance to
fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over
again. You must practice staying strong, instead.
- People think a soul mate is your perfect
fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the
person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings
you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably
the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and
smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah.Too painful. Soul
mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to
you, and then they leave. And thank God for it.
- Life, if you keep chasing it
so hard, will drive you to death. Time--when pursued like a bandit—will behave
like one; always remaining one county or one room ahead of you, changing its name
and hair color to elude you, slipping out the back door of the motel just as
you're banging through the lobby with your newest search warrant, leaving only
a burning cigarette in the ashtray to taunt you. At some point you have to stop
because it won't. You have to admit that you can't catch it. That you're not
supposed to catch it.
- YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW STRONG MY LOVE
IS!
- Prayer is a relationship; half the job is
mine. If I want transformation, but can't even be bothered to articulate what,
exactly, I'm aiming for, how will it ever occur? Half the benefit of prayer is
in the asking itself, in the offering of a clearly posed and well-considered intention.
If you don't have this, all your pleas and desires are boneless, floppy, inert;
they swirl at your feet in a cold fog and never lift.
- Stop
wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be.
- Destiny, I feel, is also a
relationship--a play between divine grace and willful self-effort. Half of it
you have no control over; half of it is absolutely in your hands, and your
actions will show measurable consequence. Man is neither entirely a puppet of
the gods, nor is he entirely the captain of his own destiny; he's a little of
both. We gallop through our lives like circus performers balancing on two
speeding side-by-side horses--one foot is on the horse called "fate,"
the other on the horse called "free will." And the question you have to
ask every day is--which horse is which? Which horse do I need to stop worrying
about because it's not under my control, and which do I need to steer with
concentrated effort? There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but
other things do fall under my jurisdiction. There are certain lottery tickets I
can buy, thereby increasing my odds of
finding contentment. I can decide how I spend my time,
whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with.
I can select what I eat and read and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard
unfortunate circumstances in my life-- whether I will see them as curses or
opportunities (and on the occasions when I can't rise to the most optimistic
viewpoint, because I'm feeling too damn sorry for myself, I can choose to keep
trying to change my outlook). I can choose my words and the tone of voice in
which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts.
- You
need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your
clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control
things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you should
be trying to control.
- Someday
you're gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of
grieving. You'll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but
your life was changing...
- There
are only two questions that human beings have ever fought over, all through
history. How much do you love me? And Who's in charge?
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詩人為LIZ寫的：
INSTRUCTIONS FOR FREEDOM
1. Life's metaphors are God's instructions.
2. You have just climbed up and above the roof. There is nothing
between you and the Infinite. Now, let go.
3. The day is ending. It's time for something that was beautiful
to turn into something else that is beautiful. Now, let go.
4. Your wish for resolution was a prayer. Your being here is God's
response. Let go, and watch the stars come out--on the outside and on the
inside.
5. With all your heart, ask for grace, and let go.
6. With all your heart, forgive him, FORGIVE YOURSELF, and let him
go.
7. Let your intention be freedom from useless suffering. Then, let
go.
8. Watch the heat of day pass into the cool night. Let go.
9. When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains.
It's safe. Let go.
10. When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then climb down
and begin the rest of your life. With great joy.
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還有太多太多，等以後有空再繼續摘錄。
